Anxiously counting down...

Well, I'm now 33 weeks pregnant. The baby apparently weighs a little over 4 pounds and has passed the 17-inch mark.

I'm still very uncomfortable. Today, very itchy! My belly itches and my maternity clothes itch! Lots of elastic and extra fabric just means more places where you can be itchy! Forget a prenatal massage, I just need a nice scratch session!

I recently had my cubicle desk moved up to make room for my big belly and allow me to cross my legs more comfortably. It has helped, but I still find myself throwing off my shoes and propping my feet up on my guest chair. Then I get uncomfortable and sit Indian style on my chair. Then I lose feeling in a foot and need to move again. I'm just a never ending twitch lately.

The worst parts is laying down isn't really any better. My side gets sore and I get muscle aches depending on how my extra weight is pulling. At night I toss and turn a lot. And I moan every time. Kaitlyn was laying with me last night and heard me moan. She asked if I did it "because of the baby in your belly?" Yep.

Later this week, Tim and I have our first of two Labor & Delivery Refresher classes. I'm looking forward to it as a sign that I'm that much closer to having the baby. I'm a little worried they will ask the same question they asked during the last class we took - "What's your favorite part about being pregnant?" Everyone in my class said "Feeling the baby move", until they got to me. My answer - "Eating anything I want." Yes, I am that shallow girl in class. I'm terribly sorry but I do NOT love pregnancy! Baby kicking is kind of cool, but it can hurt! And its kinda gross. And it doesn't even slightly compare to holding a baby in your arms and SEEING the baby kick (and being able to put it down if it kicks too much!) Having a baby growing in my belly just is not the same thing as holding a baby. Its hard to grasp that all that movement is a baby. In all honestly, it looks much more like an alien for the majority of the pregnancy anyway. Sure, I like that I get another child out of this process. Kaitlyn means so much to Tim and me that we can't put our joy into words. There are many nights that I wish I could sleep next to her all night just to have her close to me. But knowing that, I STILL wouldn't want her back in my belly! Pregnancy and baby. Two VERY different things. Two VERY different sets of emotions.

So, I apologize for not being that glowy, bright and cheery pregnant woman. I just don't have it in me. Come and see me about 6 months after the baby is born, when I'm out of the house getting a pedicure. I MIGHT be bright and cheery then...but don't count on it. ;)